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Nov. 25th, 2014 11:57 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
ninelegsMy room mate asked me if I was in love with him. I didn't want to admit it to myself but I think that I am.
How is it possible to feel so strongly about someone in such a short period of time?
How is it fair that im so upset and I bet that he isn't even losing a minute of sleep thinking about me...
I feel so out of control of my emotions and I hate it. Being depressed was easy because I just didn't feel anything any more. Getting better is hard because you start to actually care about others and make real connections. At least I thought we had a connection.
Maybe we do, maybe we never did. But I felt it.
I want to say fuck him for not wanting to be with me but I really just mean fuck him for making me feel this about about him.
I fucking made the pumpkin pie with no intentions to give him any. And yet as time goes on all im thinking about is saving a slice for him and giving it to him tomorrow.
Im probably going to do it. I know I shouldnt though. But I will.
Im so fucking hung up on him ugh.
I hope he never reads this. Or most people for that matter. It just feels so pathetic :/
How is it possible to feel so strongly about someone in such a short period of time?
How is it fair that im so upset and I bet that he isn't even losing a minute of sleep thinking about me...
I feel so out of control of my emotions and I hate it. Being depressed was easy because I just didn't feel anything any more. Getting better is hard because you start to actually care about others and make real connections. At least I thought we had a connection.
Maybe we do, maybe we never did. But I felt it.
I want to say fuck him for not wanting to be with me but I really just mean fuck him for making me feel this about about him.
I fucking made the pumpkin pie with no intentions to give him any. And yet as time goes on all im thinking about is saving a slice for him and giving it to him tomorrow.
Im probably going to do it. I know I shouldnt though. But I will.
Im so fucking hung up on him ugh.
I hope he never reads this. Or most people for that matter. It just feels so pathetic :/
